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Music theme composed spontaneously today.

But on 12th Dec 2019 it was like, Oh, and here again?

Click at the end of music theme is left intentionally this way. But no idea why I wanted it. I forgot. I have memory failure.

Squirrels of Canada and the USA

I walked to the end of this game two times. Once I started to play in the evening before my BA defense in Finance and Accounting in Warsaw School of Economics. I was studying double major – finance and accounting and clinical psychology and my thesis on Bachelor’s program was on behavioral finance topics. So after 3 years of studying both I was good enough in these topics that I could play Alone in the Dark IV The New Nightmare till an hour before my defense when I finished the game. I will remember that period of time. Probably the best in my life but I did not know this. Did not realize it was maybe the best. So many things came to me effortlessly as I was studying hard and intellectually and emotionally developing myself so much. The more amazing is that in the year 2019 I live in an old German inspiring house, in haunted surroundings of many inspiring places, rocks and caves and travel around the world to see more inspiring things I find so appealing to me. When many people perceived me crazy when I moved to Szklarska Poręba I was sure I found something more extraordinary than a kind of promotion. Like during studying something or at work. To find really inspiring place to live and settle it was really enlightening. Really deep insight that this is a place I should be in, a part of it. I should belong to such a place. It was consciously and subconsciously inspiring me. I traveled in 2019 really a lot. But the best proof for how well it fits to me speaks that I got off, set off from my place really rarely in a few recent years. No matter it was dull, uncomfortable sometimes. It engrossed me with its inspiring power. These places told me so many stories, sucked me into its own lifeline, of its own deep meanings and own dynamics that people who knew me earlier just cannot understand my metamorphosis. Why places can change me, influence me so much. Why may be more important than so many people I knew before. Maybe they did not establish real relationships with me. I do not know. I do not care. They can just fuck off from me. For me obviously.